Tuesday, November 01, 2005
I had a photo shoot at the beach on sat, for some church flyer... ...to be frank I don't really like photos but since it's for God I didnt mind, had someone did my make up for me. I thought she did a fairly good job, given the pathetic state of my face... bleah! I realise photo shooting is a tough job and really tiring. And it was kinda embrassing coz people were staring.... :/ aaargh... the rest of the girls had a photo shoot too but I had no idea where they went...maybe they went to chinese garden coz they were in chee na costumes....lol =p thank God I have my own solo.... =)
Towards the later part of the day when I had dance class, my spirit was damped and I actually teared during class, hugging my twin, wishing it didn't happen, wishing what my teacher told me was not true. I had no choice I had to accept it and move on. And ally said no matter how badly I did it does not make me a bad dancer. It does not really matter at all. Thanks girl for those words. Thanks viv for being there and all the best for ur as. It's really hard, I just wanted to cry and when we were doing pointe I had no mood to dance. My screwed ankles hurt so I took a break. Kept falling and slipping. Sighs.... U know sometimes it's just so hard. :'( Failure just keeps coming my way. Maybe God is telling me something, maybe he is moulding me... just follow his will... to cheer myself up a little, I went to go pre-order jay's album and the poster is on my bedroom wall...thank u sandwich for accompanying me
Today had a kinda surprising dance class, vanessa from my sec sch r.gym team showed up at sba today. Guess she was thinking of joining sba which took me aback, remembered all the not-so nice things she said about my sch and now she wants to be a part us?! huh...really interesting...maybe it is because the same person from her sch is here with us. Oh well... hmm...anyway sba always had a reputaion =) hehe...
Rehearsals are getting fun. At least now I'm given a part. Not the main cast which is kinda sad, but at least I'm performing= dancing. =) which is great! the feeling is shiok and I made many new friends! =D really cool people who are a lot older than me... la la. There is a lot of play acting involve and we have to really express ourselves which is so NOT an easy thing to do. And we still have to beware of the props and space of the stage. Hopefully, my parents will enjoy the show, their first ever at the esplanade! =) whee!
the beauty exposed ;
