Lost In Beauty-

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Tired extremely tired...my eyes feel like shutting off and drifting into a dreamless sleep...I wanna rest but my bosy won't let me or give me a chance to do so...I am aimlessly moving from day to day...awake in the body but spirtless in mind and soul...moving on is a hard thing to do...to forget the past and memories and look towards the future...to look up and not look back at where I once were... I want to be strong and find that fighting spirit within me once again... I want to fly and danced till I can stand on my own two feet again...I want to live to breathe in every moment of this wonderful life and to look the world in the eye and not be afraid of the storms ahead...to sail on a blue and crysal clear peaceful sea and not be disturbed at all...to do what I want to do...leave this little place and venture into the unknown parts of the world...to dance, dance till I cannot do so anymore...to find and statisfied the desire inside me...

Why does my heart ache...it should not be painful at all to see you go. To let you move on and see what the world has to offer. I do not know... I am always so carefree so why should I stop because of you...I want to move ahead to get on with my life, to be with my friends and enjoy the company of loved ones....I do not need you...I do not need your company but I will miss you...

the beauty exposed ;