Thursday, August 12, 2004
I am so bored...so bored at home, nothing to do, nobody to talk to and no one to go out with...sigh...stoning...stoning and waiting for someone to wake me up from this so-called dream... I wanna get up on my feet and dance...dance like I never did before... to jump and be free...to be free and happy, that is what I want to be... life has been boring at home these two days. All I do is study, study if not read comics...go online...that is all I do to pass time...who would have thought that one week of school holidays would be so boring...I have not felt so bored since my secondary schools days! I don't know why but I kinda miss school already...it is fun, you get to be with your friends and get to hang out with them... can't believe I miss them already... friendship is so treasured and valued in my life... my relations with people are so important and necessary in my life...can't believe what I will do without friends in my life...friends who make me laugh and cry, friends who always seem to stay away and those who seem not want to be seen with you. These are the people who make life colourful, gives more meaning to life by colouring our world...of course this is not necessary a good thing to us... we become weak, vulnerable and agitated to these kinds of people...
I have to reason why I wrote about this topic...just feel like spitting everything out on the paper and no care a thing of what people have to say...just blogging I guess...Yah...it has become my newest hobby and thing I enjoy most...it helps to get things off my chest and take off the stress from inside of me... I enjoy being carefree... enjoying not to have to worry about anything...not to care about anything else except those concerning me and my loved ones... I don't want to fall...even if I do... I want to get up as fast as I can and I want to look head and strive ahead with my head held high...
Right now I am listening to Jay chou's song, one of my favourite songs... a melody that stirs the loneliness in me... in which I feel so empty inside... and lost... not knowing what to do with this kind of feeling and which direction to turn... to forget, to look back or to look forward and never turn back...I have no idea... do I have the courage to look forward to forget the things of the past and to look ahead of the future... I do not know...when will I ever know...I do not know...
the beauty exposed ;
