Lost In Beauty-

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

I guess last sunday was the most surprising weekend that I had. It was a normal sunday morning and I've been pretty guilty for missing church last sunday! Well, since Dad is abroad, Mum drove us to church and we bumped into the CuTE twins: David and Daniel...haha then we went for praise and worship and me and Talia sat at the side seat...Meanwhile I was trying to look out for Chernise, my closest friend who had just return from Europe and I was dying to see her coz I have not seen her in three weeks!...:)

Then half-way through one of the songs, myso-called ex-crush walked into the chapel with his father...Simon was wearing a blue and white striped shirt with blue jeans and shoes...did I mention that I hate guys who wore stripped shirts?!! :)...haha How to describe seeing him again after one year? The moment he walked in I knew it was him...He was broader, taller and better looking than ever! oh my gosh...I was shocked, glad, happy and nervous to see him again. And I was glad that I look quite nice in my outfit for the day: dark blue levi's and a white blouse...

Talia says that I still got feelings for him...but I think they are lost somewhere through the clouds and time...the moment each minute passes by, he vanishes from my memory and my heart...I think these are neutral but seeing him again makes my heart skip a million beats again...just when everything was getting into place, he has to pop back into my life again, seeing him in church and all, not to mention he is good friends with Jonathan Kwong...

I dunno what to do...should I tell him that I still like him or should I take it that those memories don't exist at all and erase him from my memory...I don't think that won't be too difficult for me...Sigh and the way he looks at me when he quickly turn away, brings back all those thoughts of longing for him...And I have a hinch that he has a girlfriend, but Talia says he doesn't look like that kind that will have a
girlfriend.
I guess this is best left to God to decide for me...if our paths crossed and we are fated to meet then I will let love let the way...snift I will let go slowly...slowly until the wound does not hurt anymore...

the beauty exposed ;