Lost In Beauty-

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

I am feeling much better today...well at least my nose is not running today and I don't feel sleepy, which means I can go for my ballet class! YEAH! Last night my mananger,wilxion called and asked me to work today but I told him NO! I wanted to dance today because I miss yesterday's class and I feel really bad. I decided to go on a simple diet, I am going to give all snaks a miss, eat less biscuits and more fruits and vegetables. Also increasing the number of ballet classes per week, hopefully I am able to maintain and perhaps even loss some weight.

This would be the last month that I will be working. Come to think about it I think wilxion is not too happy about it. He will be lossing a least five of us. Me,cheryl,sheng yao, shane and colin will be leacing the company this month or next month to prepare to go back to school. haha...but that means that I will no longer be earning money and I won't have enough to buy all the clothes that I need for school. This include a new dark blue levi and a couple of shirts and a new bag! Not to mention a new phone. I want the svumsang x-70 model, it is so nice and stylish! And I think I will be pretty broke after paying for all these things! haha...not forgetting all the school expenses on ststionery! I think I will have to borrow money from the bank...haha

Hmm...by the thime I go back to school, it would be in june and most of my friends will be having their holidays! Well I enjoyed an extremely long break and sll the more I should sturdy harder. I am really looking forward to school, a new campus, a new life , a new beginning. I want to make lots of friends and GOOD ones like in secondary school. Perhaps if luck is on my side I might even fall in love and have a boyfriend if fate permits it. Well, right now I am quite happy being single and I don't have to worry about others and people don't have to worry too much about me. And the best part is I don't have to worry about those love problems about whether this guy like me or not. But now, times are changing and my good friends like viven,chern are all getting boyfriends. Sometimes, when I see those couples hugging and whispering sweet words into each other's ears, I DO feel kinda lonely. And it really makes me wonder what it's like to be attached. However, I am scared. I am scared of getting hurt and I don't want to love someone so much that it is a one-sided love. That kind of relationship is very painful...hmm I really wondered what made my typed out all this stuff...I guess it's the music I am listening to, westside music tracks! Right now I am very contented to have guys and even male customers looking at me...sigh which means that I am not that bad looking right?!! Some of them even said that I am Pretty!. It feels so good to receive such a teenage comment. I would blushed and quickly look away, at that moment I wanted to fly to the sky! :) *SmIlInG aLL ThE wAY!!!~~~... ;P

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